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I have had a manic several months recovering from an inspired and doubtless crazy chase for my soul and for foundations of a science of finance–a non-Markovian science of finance.  The latter is not crazy because Mandelbrot thought correctly but without solving the problem that the time series from finance had non-Markovian characteristics from his seminal 1963 paper on cotton prices where he advocated Levy stable distributions (whose pdf is not known explicitly but whose characteristic function or Fourier transform is $e^{-c|\xi|^\alpha}$ and since of course physicists have fit these, as is already well-known, by truncated Levy flights).  Taking a vacation from this, I found today the neologism ‘nuiser’ which is a French word but which seems like it should have a English meaning that is not derived directly from the French.  Nuisance sounds like nuiser.  Nuiser.  Nuise-nuiser?  Or perhaps a noun.  Someone is a nuiser if he or she irritates some deep issues like a muckraker.  I am tempted to define a ‘nuiser’ in the Emersonian sense of conscience muckraker, someone who without worry or compromise and danger of social expulsion especially from the powerful who decide whose words are worth listening to and whose are not for they pose a ‘threat’ to society, a ‘nuiser’.  A nuiser is someone who does not give a flying fuck about credibility and speaks his truth loudly and clearly, and does not need to shake people’s hands like a new Diogenes Laertes.  I have been a nuiser because there is honor in honesty and knowledge from lived experience, from the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune and whatever is the lot of the powerless.  I happen to have an excellent education with Princeton, MIT, Columbia etc.on my resume but I have decided to pursue issues that have no credibility because credibility is suspicious and boring.  No intellect who cares about new spaces of exploration can be credible without deep compromise.  Emerson says the innermost in due time becomes the outermost and trust thyself.  New knowledge does not come form following the established paths but must come from internal paths and dark cellars of the soul.  There are millions of smart people paying attention to the material world and analyzing it in every which way but they are limited by walls in their own mind and do not dare to be honest for being tossed from their ledge in society if they cross real taboos and what is an intellect worth if taboos are not crossed.  I remember in my last day in San Francisco a masturbating loudmouth chastised me for the ‘need to speak’ as masturbation for half an hour of masturbation and then shook hands with the white people in the cafe I frequented including the weed merchant hippie telling me about Julian Jaynes and Descartes’ view about the seat of the soul recently, things that are obvious and I knew about since high school and then he pranced around to take a piss after shaking people’s hands.  This is how people are.  This is what society of credibility looks like.  It’s all show.  I spoke honestly about my hallucinations and visions of Hell which he dismissed as ‘paranoid schizophrenia’.  I realized that he was just another moron whose individuality consists of protecting ‘credibility’ without any insights or genius.  Psychiatrists know nothing of value about how the universe works.  They are just wardens protecting their social order by expelling dangerous minds who see more than others, just penal servants.  So a ‘nuiser’ could be someone who is a nuisance to the credible opinions of an age.