August 13, 2015 by zulfahmed
I hear ‘I’m sorry you’re my angel’. This delusional voice is very nice. I wished it were yours but I highly doubt it. These delusional voices are intriguing. I do not make them in my conscious mind. Most interesting. I’ve gone mad.
Apologies for cussing — it’s not more than a Calvin-Hobbes thing for me. Anyway you broke my heart etc. last poem then I buzz off from your life forever I hope.
was cussing when I thought I came to you in my dreams you were wearing a kimono and begin ordering some cleansing process cutting me up into pieces and attempting to enslave me and then there were red soldiers behind in some ambush where they all attacked me and pushed me into some circular trap that went downward to some unseen abyss. So it was a big error to identify this woman with you. I apologize if this woman was not you. Anyway … as you said yourself you fell out of love long ago. I don’t know how to relate to you since my delusional dreams have completely confused me regarding who you are.
Long distance relationships are not relationships at all. They are fake.
In fact, I am pretty far in my own reality, Here, ‘Jew’ ‘Christian’, ‘Muslim’ etc, don’t have any meaning they all seem like little toy robots running around shooting each other.
Asshole? Hah, says the rich lady who refuses to visit someone poor who spends $5000 on phone and sends his best books because he believes truly that something beautiful will happen and ends up in the fucking streets. No you can’t win on asshole with me honey. YOU are the asshole if you go there.
On the other hand, your faux fake love which provoked real emotions in me did provide protection from FBI swat team looking for Nazis in SF in my apartment, So it’s a toss up. Maybe it was just that, a game … A LOSING GAME
Now if you were able to see out of the silly religion thing — LOVE-WAR AXIS. There we both won.