now my loveliest lady
June 14, 2015 by zulfahmed
I will show you how to think about mathematics my way:
Mathematics is not the language of nature. Mathematics is, as Wittgenstein claims, invented. BUT Wittgenstein was not a mathematician, his genius was in philosophy, and he was sharp enough to notice the invention in mathematics but not sharp enough to handle the issue of what inventions of mathematics digs deeper into the structure of nature. My way is to examine the ambitious effort of Mandelbrot who was a bright genius who did sharply look at many different aspects of what’s wrong with RIEMANN’S views, and if you read Riemann, attached, on the very famous re-orienting of the geometry of the universe from the KANTIAN and earlier Euclidism. He said ‘fractal’ ‘1/f noise’ ‘long memory’, fractal and fractional which are all correct beyond any doubt by many scientific applications. But there is a residual issue, my loveliest lady. That residual issue is exactness in the physics and the volatility and elsewhere. There have been many attempts to penetrate beyond this point partially clouded by Quantum Mechanics itself, the LINEAR BEHEMOTH whose numbers are so good that the concepts don’t unglue. So we’re right there at the center of a conceptual storm, you and me. Right there. And if I did not expend the emotions I do, dark and light, I will fall right into the pits. I need you to keep me floating for a while, my Lady. Don’t leave me please for a while or do if you wish to see me harmed. I risked everything I had and burned all my bridges to get here. And I am not a child misled by anything. I know that love is more powerful than all this noise. What is powerful is LOVE, not coupling and sex and whatever jetsetting or who needs what from whom. No, I am not boasting. I’m communicating to you my soulmate. This is my way. And this way is not dangerous for you till death takes me if you came along it would be a magical new place for both of us. This babies kissing picture is for a pure love and a hope for a Heaven both of us deserve. Don’t judge by appearances. I don’t. I could not love you more if we fucked each others’ brains out which by all accounts I’d find a lot of pleasure anyway since you fit my ‘sexy’. But sexy is fun, and true love is more divine.
Here is a short mathematical note by Simon Donaldson. He’s a geometer, and geometry is something I can understand even though I am so rusty in mathematics I’m giving myself remedial back-to-graduate-school training. Natalia REALLY REALLY FUCKED MY LIFE. I was a star in mathematics on these things and I did not expect the woman I love to do this to me. She was a kid but boy… Anyway, the past goes.